They tried to make me go to rehab and I said Yes, yes, yes!

A couple things:

1)On Saturday morning I got to wake up at an unholy hour. Six a.m. Why? I was volunteering with a church to go visit people at a rehab center. It was very, very nice. Put things in perspective. I'm always thinking to myself "I need to do more, I need to better myself. I need to get this, I have to buy this, why can't I have a better job? why can't I have rich parents? why can't I have my own reality show?" but I now know I have it pretty easy. I have a good family who loves me, I have a job, I go to school. I've never done drugs. There were girls my age, old ladies, guys, pregnant girls. Two ladies and two guys gave their testimonies about how drugs had destroyed their lives absolutely and how God has rescued them. It was amazing. The two ladies' stories broke my heart because they lost their kids, became prostitutes, went to jail, were abused by men and it was all for that next high. As far as the guys, they too lost their kids, their wives, their houses. One of them remembered one time when he took his little 3 year old to a crack house because he was supposed to babysit him and he kinda turned the kid's face away while he shooted up heroin next to him. Sad stuff. I just thank God for never letting me fall into that life. Seems like a very hard one.

2) Did anyone see "Keeping up with the Kardashians" today? Funny shit. Khloe and Kourtney got in a huge fight with Kim over them being rude to the guy who hooked up Kim's new Bentley. The fight was hilarious because at some point Khloe and Kim started hitting each other. Next week is gonna be even better.

3) I can not wait for "Livin Lohan" to premier. I think Lindsay Lohan's mom is one crazy bitch.

I also can't wait for the "Sex and the City" movie. Is it May yet?!

4) I'm getting a boob job. I just have to start saving up to pay for it. I don't want huge DD's, just some small C's to make me look a bit more proportioned.

5) I went to visit a friend who recently had a baby. He's the cutest thing ever! But I just realized how hard it is to be 20 and have to raise a kid by yourself. Even though she still lives with her parents and they help her out A LOT, it's still way too much. I don't think I could do it, not at this age and not in the next five to eight years.

6) Remember how I gave my ex boyfriend the boot? Well, he's back. He has been texting me non-stop for the past three days. First, he sent me a song and I ignored it, so after a couple hours he sent it again. Next day, he goes "Hi". I ignored it. Couple hours later, "Hi". Then yesterday, he goes "What is a hot flash?" WTF?!! I mean, seriously. Why would he text me that? Does he think I'm not gonna make fun of him? Ugh. He just pisses me off. The only good thing about it is that I love the feeling of not answering his texts. All powerful and shit. I just really have nothing to say to him. I mean, I could sit here for hours and not come up with a single thing to say to this guy so hopefully he'll get the hint and stop the texting.

7) I couldn't go to the beach this weekend. I truly am a beach bum and I've spent the last 5 weekends straight at he beach. One of the things I love about FL is being able to go to the beach and work on my tan on January so I've been doing just that for the last couple months and I'm about 5 shades darker. Even though I'm Hispanic, my skin is very, very white so getting a nice tan takes a lot of work but I'm getting there. The thing is that I LOVE the beach. Growing up, we used to spend every single weekend at our beach house in home country so to me, hanging out at the beach is like being home. I love that feeling of peace I get when I'm laying on the sand reading or sleeping and just soaking up the sun. And going in the ocean is just indescribable. I can't put the feeling into words. I could literally spend my whole day at the beach because I love it in the very early morning, I love it at night. I love it when it's cold, when it's hot. When it's dark. It's just my home. If I didn't have a 9 to 5 I would DEFINITELY be at the beach even on weekdays.